Friday, November 30, 2012


So I am not finishing Nano but I have a good reason!  I got work.  Yes, I did.  This past week I've been working not just one job, but two!  See that?  That is accomplishment!

I was looking back on my posts and thinking "damn, I got kinda depressing in there!" Didn't mean to.  It's  a problem with being honest. I am a little too straightforward, sometimes.  All the time.  I guess it's my dysfunction.  We all have a little, right?

However!  I worked two 8 hour days, on my feet, outside in the rain and came home and wrote.  Both nights.  

Oh, man that felt good.

I don't even care that I didn't reach 50k words.  I worked--minimum wage? --who cares? I worked.  And it felt good.  It *feels* good, to know that I am bringing in  a little moolah.

Makes me feel more in control of...everything.

So I'm working on the Dezzy story.  Yes, that's shifting gears from the Nano project.  The two actually have very different styles of writing (why the hell???) Sometimes, they just come out that way.

Or, other possibility, it's all in my head.

I will finish the Nano novel!  But... not being rushed, I might just write and write and write.  It might be longer than 50k words.

Yeah... that's my problem... epics.  I write epics.  Sometimes short novels seem out of reach.  Novels turn into epics.  Short stories turn into novellas.  It's my life.  Or my writing, take your pick--it's true in either.

I'm gushing.  Life feels good.  Returning to writing fiction now--

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


My life is much the same, I am still applying for work, and that on-going effort has continued to make me very insecure and feed my self doubt.  But I decided to participate in Nanowrimo, and this project has given me a healthy obsession.

I have surpassed 16000 words on my Nano-novel and it feels great!

Focusing on this project has made me feel that I can achieve things, again.  The outpouring of support and likes I have received on Facebook has kept me motivated and dedicated to reaching my goals.  I know I need more positive affirmation sometimes than a person should rightfully expect from their friends and family, especially when so much of my life feels like a train wreck.

I used to use my writing to cope.  But the guilt I can come to associate with doing something I "want" to do over "need," to do gets in the way of me achieving anything in my writing.

So Nano has been the perfect excuse to lay the demons to rest.

I even handled an interview with a far more level headed approach than the previous ones -- about a year ago.   Still didn't get the position, but I haven't let that devastate me, either.

I am killing off characters in this draft, which is new for me. Destroying fictional people is a fine alternative to wallowing.  

No wallowing.

Just another 3k words today and a few applications off in the mail....

Yes, that is positive achievement.

In other notes:  I've been working on getting my blog into some shape that I *like* and the last few templates have been buggy.  As you can see, this one si not perfect either.  I've already started piling through the codes and trying to translate bits of it... Though I would also be open to assistance/advice as to how to get the day/post title to *Not* overlap.

Please inform me if you spot any other issues (and good tutorials  as to how to fix issues are also welcome).



Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Less Buggy Template? + Nano

I loved the colors in the other one, but this template is hopefully less buggy.  As I launched into Nano I realized that I would not have much time to work on the web coding.

I see this still has a few things that need fixing.  I'll get on that :)

In other news, Nanowrimo is going well.  I've successfully managed about 3k words a day.  One day I did more, as  I was unable to get *any* writing done on the 2nd, as I had an interview! (Yay!) Though no job offer :(

Still, at least I'm getting a good amount of writing done.

Wrapping up chapter 3 and plunging into 4, I'm hoping to reach 16000 words today.